Monday, March 31, 2014


Just another random rant.

We've been married for 5 years now and I'll say we are doing quite well. Only that I've been feeling that my husband is not that fun anymore. I knowww right! How can you feel that?

I guess because both of us are busy juggling the family, with two growing up kids, our hands are quite full. But I always 'think' that my husband changed. To a boring man. Because I 'think' I am fun (so full of myself pffttttt). Couple of months ago, we were in fight and trying to cool it off, then we went to see some relatives and they have this congkak (you know, the traditional play thing), so I said

"Jom main!"

And he said, "no hands hurt"

And I blurt out, "You are no fun"

And he was taken aback (of course he is! I will too if I am in his shoes) and said "I'm serious, I hurt my fingers yesterday"


I know I was wrong..but I was just upset (we were in fight, remember) and I feel so bored.

Anywayyy...last night we were watching our honeymoon vacation to Japan in 2009 and guess what?

Oh myyyyyyyyyy I WAS SO FUN BACK THEN!

It was me who changed over the years and I have the cheek to think it is my husband! Ok, maybe he changed too, but look at myself! I've become a boring person too!!

In those videos, I was so chirpy and funny and interesting and yadayadayada. I still a fun person now, but not as much as I used to be.

Sigh. Time to reflects myself.

Now we are in a good terms, I don't think he is a boring person at all, it's just me whom being critical. And our priorities changed's no longer about two of us. We still having fun in different kind of level and I will never trade it with anything.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Cupcake Pincushion

Something simple I made months ago, on one of the sleepless night, for a friend of mine. 

With her initial

Round paper basket (got one from a wedding, normally they put chocolates/egg inside), felt, fiber, polkadot cotton, lace and beads for sprinkles. Yum!!

Friday, March 28, 2014

Luahan di hari Jumaat

Just a short update to kick back my mojo to blog.

There are times when I feel so lost! And that will be past few weeks, hence that explains my silence. I just don't know what I want. At one time, I was so determined to quit the job and be a housewife because I can't face the drama every morning, traffic jam, Zahra crying wants her mommy, being late to work, etc. Sigh. It's too hectic for me.

Then after I calmed down, quitting is not a good option for now. I mean, I still need the money and whatnot. And as much as I miss my kids daily, I know other moms out there also feel the same. But I find it hard because everyday Zahra will cry about wanting me to stay at home. The only time she won't cry if I send her to school late, very late like at 9AM. And that means, I also will be late to work. Sigh. How I wish my work time start at 10AM so I can handle the kids (and the house) and don't have to bother my husband (we are carpooling now, so if I am late, so will he!).

So bothersome.

And talking about the house, it is such a mess nowadays. I still call the weekend maid but it's not enough. The house is super clean but I still have laundry and mountains of cloth to fold. It is never end.

Typical mommy's problem I guess.

Anyway I am much better now. Maybe I just need a 'me' time.